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I would have nothing if i didnt have you.
I looked around my room. Well, i still have a few things to put into plastic bags, and im very much done.
My room is so empty now, just like how it was when i moved in earlier this year. Time flies, doenst it? I remember how i was excited about this year after Christmas last year. i promised to make this year a year i wont forget.
"its going to be so fast, so furious, and its going to be so fun" i said.
looking back, this past year has certainly, certainly going to be one i keep close with me.
Thank you, you, you, and you. *points at you
Thank you for the past year. Im not a perfect person. Thank you for your patience for me, and your faith in me. Thank you for being here for the past year or two. Thank you for the encouragements, and for keeping me on track. I would definitely not be who i am today if not for all you have done. And i would definitely not be here whole if any of you werent there for me. i couldnt have made it this far without you.
Thank You.
Sometimes our light goes out but is blown into flame by another human being. Each of us owes deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this light.
~Albert Schweitzer
I thank God for each and every single one of you.
Im no good when it comes to voicing my feeelings. I hope you understood.
I love you.
i need to pack. may not be online or twittering that often (omg!). but i think i'll be sticking to blogging. :D
this is just something brief, something i wanted to do before i leave Singapore until next year.
oh, will be back on the 9th January, just in case you were wondering.
p.s. MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance.
pleasereadthis.blogspot.com
stumbled upon these pretty things from here.
I love you. I love your eyes. I love your smell. I love your hair. I love your laugh. I love your skin. I love everything inside you. And I'll try to make all the parts that I find, happy.
Because you make me happy. So much.
The bad news is, your choices and intentions, some people and places, those nights spent awake and all you've done, can lead you to the bottom of the pit.
The good news is, this wouldn't be the first time someone's crawled, tooth and nail, out of hell.
oh, pretty people, with pretty words. :(
Labels: nianci. imnotinthemoodforlabels.
dont cry, eating's more worth it.
wanted: someone that would do this with me, with no questions asked.
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today's outing was awesome. i'll think twice now before i blurt out that there's nothing much to eat in Singapore. THANK YOU FRIENDS!
have been eating and eating and eating since i left this morning. i am not going to think about the calories.
NO, i am not sick of eating yet. hahahaha, this pig continues tomorrow and the day after the next (and the next, and the next).
we took like 400++ pictures today. will upload on facebook.
on another note, im almost done packing.
i'll post something constructive soon. :D
im having fun, hopefully, you too. God Bless. :D
Labels: nianci. falalawithme.
i think im sane, wait, i know im sane.
it happens, we make mistakes. we blurt out the wrong words, we hang out with the wrong people, we choose to do the wrong thing at exactly the wrong time. we fall in love with the wrong people. we make the mistake, we hurt, we fall down, we feel like giving up. because of the wrongs, nothing feels right anymore, does it? but what we dont see is that, everyone’s been wrong once, everyone has cried for the bastard that tore your heart apart. no doubt about it, everyone’s been there. look around, and look beyond the faces you see, definitely you’ll see lives that have. just like yours, crashed and burnt. why are they happy now? just because they know, they know that its not the end, that the broken road they were trampling on was merely part and parcel of life, that horrible, horrible path was just a detour to happiness, to Right. and they fight, they decide that being wrong is no fun, and they keep keep going. its cliche, but what doesnt break you does makes you stronger. so stand up, take the step. i know it feels easier to stay there, deep down, hoping that someone will help you up one day. they might, but why wait, my dear, why wait? you know you need this, you know you dont like yourself like this, so make the change, because i have faith in you. i have faith that you’ll make it through, that one day, and that you’ll be saying the these exact same words.
wipe away those tears, my dear. its not worth it, and you know that. let’s go now. no, looking back is not a option. look forward, let the past stay in the past. focus now, focus. do you see it now? do you see all the possibilities moving on can bring you? do you see how strong you can be?
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was supposed to post about something else, but this came along.
so yeap, the uber cute (well, its cute in my mind) post will have to wait for tomorrow.
out with my classmates on an island wide makan spree tomorrow! so fun! :DDD
charging the camera now, i cant wait!
but im almost broke too. ugh, i'll worry about that later. :)
im going to go pack now, but msn and twitter is distracting me, tumblr too. :)))
nahhh, im still a happy girl. hope that you are too.
erm, hello?
Yes, i am aware that i’ve come to a place where nothing around me seems to affect me, that im not moved by anyone anymore. You call it walls i build around me, denying anyone any access to come in, not even come close. You say because of these “walls” i choose to be oblivious, i choose to be ignorant to all the other hearts around me. Yes, maybe you’re right. Maybe i did just choose to be the bitch i appear to be, to be cold-hearted, to be heartless, to be selfish. But you dont know. You dont know how bad this heart’s been broken. You dont know how long it took to superglue the million broken pieces of this heart together. But I do. And I’m telling you, superglue is not cheap, and even if it isn’t expensive, i’d still wouldn’t bring myself to go through all of that again. Because i know exactly the feeling of waking up feeling so empty as you watched yet another person walk out of your life the night before, i know exactly the feeling of trying to breathe because you have to, and not want to. i know it all too well. and ever since i promised myself i wouldnt let this happen to me again, ever since i built these “walls” of mine, i’ve never felt ant safer, i’ve never felt any less vulnerable, i’ve never felt any stronger. so please, dont take this away from me.
ok, another one i wrote when i was bored. this one's a wee bit more relevant to me, i guess?Labels: nianci. randomlyrandomrantings.
im just bored.
oh, when im bored, i pretend to be love sick and write stuff that would make people puke/laugh their asses off.
once again, this is no reflection of my life, and no, i dont need a psychiatrist, i just needed something to do.
im going to be strong today. yes, yesterday was yesterday, but its not today. im not going to think about you today, because that was yesterday. im not going think about how much i need you today, because that was yesterday. im not going to look through our pictures today, because i already did that so many times yesterday. im not going to cry myself to sleep again today, because that was yesterday. im going to be fine today. not as fine as i was when i was with you. but definitely, definitely, finer than yesterday. because today is the day i’ll hold on tight to all the hurt i had yesterday to mould the stronger me i am today. wish me luck.
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